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so i say this is like (counting fingers...) my 4th dancing stint i did in the office. first was for the yansab milestone, mexican xmas, then yansab retro milestone again... and this one for saudi kayan townhall just yesterday... 

buttons by pussycat dolls. choreo by ehem... ehem..  4days practice after office hours. we did the routine twice due to public demand hehehe.. one expat approached the table and another from our very own general manager.. all the boys are on the front row ready to record the strip show. haha. 
                             

       the few chosen pretty girls of saudi kayan project..

reminiscing one day
I was sitting down the school park
a message from you came by surprise
Asking me to brighten your day up
Invited me to a movie that very night.

I looked beside me and there you are
Holding my hand tightly
Kissed my forehead
The movie was boring
But you were not

What is with September anyway?
All the songs with that word in it
Like “wake me up when September ends”
Or “Can't remember, what went wrong last September”
By the Mayer guy. And I had my share too.
Oh I have forgotten that night
Who would remind me now?

Though our relationship was fun
Yet uneasy
Somebody in your past
Is still holding on
And still believing in the promises
You both once shared

I was fearful to love
I wanted to fight the odds
My uneducated heart, naked and young
Usher was a witness, and so were coffees
Time gone away
I did nothing

mandy had three movies that i really liked so far : a walk to remember, how to deal, and because i said so. in all these films, there are scenarios that doesnt really convince me.. well, which makes me love the stories even more. 

in a walk to remember, mandy was loved by aimless landon.. loved her till the end. considering her far from cool looks, their loved showed real virtues of love. landon was changed. point is landon fell inlove with her bec she ddnt care and she was nice and caring, and strong, and kind. can all girls just be like her?

in how to deal, mandy was surrounded by the dysfunctional relationships and is disillusioned that true love never exists. eventually she had a fling. ugghhh she even said "i just like kissing him". i mean, can u really kiss somebody you dont like? okay, u can kiss once or twice... but the third time is .. i dunno.. unless you're a perv and u dont care about the person. and so the song goes.."we can't play this game anymore but can we still be friends?". maybe it's okay if the two of you understand the situation.. then it's okay. but the guy there fell in love.. and mandy just have to think and believe that somewhere down the relationship.. they had it and it was real. but what if mandy told him not to fall in love with her? is that possible? after what they did together? ddnt mandy ever had feelings for him? can they still be friends after all this time? how should you deal with that eh? 

i had a fling whom i've gotten intimate with. unbelievable at first but by the day.. i grew serious. it would then be a one way street so i tried to stay away. it was hard but unless he feels the same, i would know and there's no need to depart ways. well, after sometime, i tried to say goodbye even when im dying. it stopped him though and never pursued, even told him he ggot scared that i might fall. i mean hello. im the wrong girl u've gotten to that ordeal. impulsively, i told him to delete my number bec it would be difficult being friends with him. it was like a breakup... i apologized and asked him to be friendsters considering the relationship we had, (which i guess is harmless), he still isnt accepting me  :teary eyed: oh well.

and lastly, i newly watched because i said so just this weekend and it was like.. hey-wait-a-minute.. okay okay. so the three girls are free spirited, and she do the deed to both guys. how can she kiss and do it with someone when she's not totally into him? so she's overwhelmed dating terrific guys. if i was the architect, i had a girl and she was fake all along. man, im not sure how to take it. okay, so madaming ganyan mundo. and that struck me. so a person can kiss you on the forehead, smack you on the lips, french kiss, and all the sweet hullaballoos, and in the end say she's not really comfortable with you? it was like a crazy game. or maybe the architect is at fault too. he was too forward?" i dunno. i was just happy that the guy overcome his pride and they got back together. i mean the second guy.  


in the end, nobody owns anybody. you are free to go. stay if u want to stay. i would still fall in love and get hurt. relationships are case to case basis. you can start from the modest of situations, find somebody in a cliche crowd, or find love from the heat of passion. some people get lucky. others just got to take risks. falling in love is a rare chance. once we find it.. i'd dare say.. take it.. and fall.

i could hear my uncle
inside the toilet. his
toothbrush reaches his
throat and gawks as if
he wants to while
hearing wolfgang tapes
on a surveying review
session. i can't
demarcate the bounds
where i'm refrained
to exceed for tomorrows
test is about to come.
and when the clock
starts to tick on its
final destination, switch
mode turns to a cowboic
image, firing guns like
some western showdown.
okay, let's count 2 years
more until you realize
you're old enough to go
to the barber shop all
by yourself.

feb 27 2000
4:20
samp mla
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this is a poem i did while reviewing for an exam way back in 2000.

On a trip to a debut, i was on a taxi with piscean friend and we're like close friends. 
sya - anong sign mo?
ako - ako? gemini
sya - talaga? kase pinsan ko gemini. magaan ang loob ko saknya

and that conversation led me to an interest that  became a part of me forever ~ the zodaics and what it says about you. i had a liking for that guy but i was bridging him to my girl-friend. i so pushed to say he's an aquirian, bec that is more logical why we're chums. aquirian and gemini are air signs kase. magkaugali. magkasundo. well, he was born in the junction of aquirius and pisces so there's a confusion. in the end, i call him pisces bec ugghhh he's water deep emotional.

after 8 years since i started to get interested in zodiac signs (oh pls not horoscopes), i got this book at Book Sale (P185) together with Amy Tan's The Joy Luck Club (for only P35. grabe ang mura. it costs 300++ at Natl bstore). i just believe what the Sign tells about the personality of the person, maybe about 80%.. hahaha. But the horoscope readings that are written in the newspaper, not really. you just have to be at your best everyday and be responsible of your actions. years ago i got this palmistry book (again, by interest) but got lost in someone else's hands. learning astrology helps me understand a person better, buti dont judge them quickly naman. some things you can get at face value but the rest, when a person get's mad, or sensitive, blah blah, i understand bec that's just the way they are.. that is thru astrology.. 

so what's a nice partner for a gemini? i say a leo, aquirius, libra, aries.
in the end, i still believe that we are all unique individuals and there's more than to what the stars can tell about us *wink wink*